She writes..
How does it feel to be free ? I will let you know soon.
I just got released from my current assignment after 2 years of non-stop work. Lots have happened in the last two years but something that has just remained constant is my WORK. Every day, for 2 years now, i worked.
The longest Roller-Coaster ride i've ever been in. Tears, smiles, shocks, surprises, appraisals,awards...
And now, its all over. The baby that i nurtured for 2 years ,has been handed over to someone else. I have to say, i am experiencing something that people usually call "mixed-emotions". I was waiting until my wedding day to experience one of these but funnily enough, work has taken a lead this time. I am certainly not a work-o-holic. But somehow i feel possessive of the way i dealt with this project. In the begining, it was evil, i tell you. In modern english, i would call it an horcrux that i unabashedly wore around myself for two full years. I failed, i faultered, i flawed, i hurt myself but i survived.
I was rewarded for my work. I was appreciated, i received the most coveted titles. Yet, the most happiness that i got was when everytime i saw the tiny-tot take baby steps and make it into the bigger world. OK. I am talking about the production/live deployment of the deliverables for a change request. OK. In english, project completion.
It was mine all the way, no team, no people. IT was mine and I was proud EVERY time.
If i had to go through the same ride for an other time, would i say yes ? I wouldn't know the answer. I have changed, life changes. But today, as i see the last two years unfold in front of me, i am tempted to be nostalagic, i am sentimental after all. Thanks almighty, for letting me experience something like this, something that almost nearly KILLED me. Thanks for keeping me alive, i depart with a bow. I will miss you. Good Bye CR2.
Friday, July 29, 2011
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
It's only the start...
She writes...
Two months from now, i would be a Mrs.
Well, life does change... and fast !! These days, i often hear voices in my head shouting "Arghh, you are SO young to be 'Mrs.Deepika', 'Why now ?', 'Why not later?', 'Is this all?', 'So wife huh ?!!' " .
It is scary, these thoughts. Life beyond the nuptial bond seems like a true mystery and not in a great way. But hey, don't blame me, it is not like anyone who gets married ever paints you a rosy picture of marriage.
Two and half years back, i met this guy.. in a land that i had hitherto only seen on the physical map of India. Somewhere, i know Gandhi did something (!). Something to do with the IIM's (!).....
Anyway, this guy, he was a charmer by all means and yet somehow i managed to ignore him. He was there, sitting next to me, from 9 AM to 6 PM, working with me.. a colleague... and we neither greeted each other nor did we acknowledge each other when we met outside. Weird.
His silence raised my curiosity by the day. Just for the heck of it, I nick-named him "sadhu", someone who, in regional terms, simply means a silent harmless monk !!! Well, Sadhu, not for long. It took me a few more days to realize that i had woken up a "drunken/hangover'ed" lion with my silly insinuations. And that's the start of the greatest friendship ever. I laughed like never before, I had fun like i never had in years, his presence would brighten my day and boy, what a friend he turned out to be? May be that's why i gave him a 5x5 cm cute little hallmark card that said "You are even better than i thought" :)
Night walks, phone calls, SMS, e-mails, gossip, me whining, his jokes, 'nariyal paani' in the canteen, flight journey, auto rides, 'Bhagyodhay's' lemon rice, Panner mania, Iskon mall, ebony lounge, '99' - the movie, infocity resort's pavement....
Well.. love stories just go on.. don't they? *smiles*. Too much said, months passed and I had my share of surprises too, on the eve of my 22nd birthday was a proposal on the sands of thiruvanmiyur beach, a bouquet of roses, a birthday cake that said "for the birth of You and Us" , a swarovski ring... and, everything that a girl wants. Life has never been the same ever since. Tons and galloons of love, laughs, tears, hugs, smiles,fights, fun, happiness and lots and lots of love.... Some more love... Add a tinge of love... a little more.... ah well, its never enough. :)
We make a good pair, you know. May be, that's what our parents saw in us ( 'what we made them see' would be more appropriate !! ). In south india, once you bring the parents in the picture, enlighten them about your relationship, throw in an ounce of seriousness in your tone, expect the next word to be "Marriage". and that is exactly what happened.
Two n half years, seems like a glorious route travelled and the road ahead after two months has the direction sign that says "Life" with -> arrow board. Am i ready to set sail ? I don't know.But one thing that i would do with my eyes closed, is to hold the hands of my guy and walk beside him forever and ever.
I might be freaked out with all this sudden change of comfort zones, marriage responsibilities, new title, new relatives et all.. but he's out there laughing at my innocence and telling me "Idiot, its going to be fine". [and the psycho that i am, i am thinking, 'Dude, your going to have to do a LOT more to be just fine living a life with me] and he gives me his re-assuring smile, like as if he just read my mind. See, right there, that's where he wins me all over again. DAMN.
Thus, i answer the voices
"Arghh, you are SO young to be 'Mrs.Deepika'" = "Am i, then THAT is what adds to the FUN part, doesn't it ??? Younger wives are better than older hags !!! am gonna make all you married couples SO jealous (ok sorry.. Mom says i shouldn't say such things )"
"Why now?" = "Yes, NOW, Right away.. "
"Why not later?" = Later ??? how about a micro-milli-mini-second later ?
"Is this all ?" = Bring it on !!
"So wife huh?!!" = So..... WIFE huh :-)
Two months from now, Meet Mrs.Deepika. :-)
Miss.Deepika
Signing Off
Two months from now, i would be a Mrs.
Well, life does change... and fast !! These days, i often hear voices in my head shouting "Arghh, you are SO young to be 'Mrs.Deepika', 'Why now ?', 'Why not later?', 'Is this all?', 'So wife huh ?!!' " .
It is scary, these thoughts. Life beyond the nuptial bond seems like a true mystery and not in a great way. But hey, don't blame me, it is not like anyone who gets married ever paints you a rosy picture of marriage.
Two and half years back, i met this guy.. in a land that i had hitherto only seen on the physical map of India. Somewhere, i know Gandhi did something (!). Something to do with the IIM's (!).....
Anyway, this guy, he was a charmer by all means and yet somehow i managed to ignore him. He was there, sitting next to me, from 9 AM to 6 PM, working with me.. a colleague... and we neither greeted each other nor did we acknowledge each other when we met outside. Weird.
His silence raised my curiosity by the day. Just for the heck of it, I nick-named him "sadhu", someone who, in regional terms, simply means a silent harmless monk !!! Well, Sadhu, not for long. It took me a few more days to realize that i had woken up a "drunken/hangover'ed" lion with my silly insinuations. And that's the start of the greatest friendship ever. I laughed like never before, I had fun like i never had in years, his presence would brighten my day and boy, what a friend he turned out to be? May be that's why i gave him a 5x5 cm cute little hallmark card that said "You are even better than i thought" :)
Night walks, phone calls, SMS, e-mails, gossip, me whining, his jokes, 'nariyal paani' in the canteen, flight journey, auto rides, 'Bhagyodhay's' lemon rice, Panner mania, Iskon mall, ebony lounge, '99' - the movie, infocity resort's pavement....
Well.. love stories just go on.. don't they? *smiles*. Too much said, months passed and I had my share of surprises too, on the eve of my 22nd birthday was a proposal on the sands of thiruvanmiyur beach, a bouquet of roses, a birthday cake that said "for the birth of You and Us" , a swarovski ring... and, everything that a girl wants. Life has never been the same ever since. Tons and galloons of love, laughs, tears, hugs, smiles,fights, fun, happiness and lots and lots of love.... Some more love... Add a tinge of love... a little more.... ah well, its never enough. :)
We make a good pair, you know. May be, that's what our parents saw in us ( 'what we made them see' would be more appropriate !! ). In south india, once you bring the parents in the picture, enlighten them about your relationship, throw in an ounce of seriousness in your tone, expect the next word to be "Marriage". and that is exactly what happened.
Two n half years, seems like a glorious route travelled and the road ahead after two months has the direction sign that says "Life" with -> arrow board. Am i ready to set sail ? I don't know.But one thing that i would do with my eyes closed, is to hold the hands of my guy and walk beside him forever and ever.
I might be freaked out with all this sudden change of comfort zones, marriage responsibilities, new title, new relatives et all.. but he's out there laughing at my innocence and telling me "Idiot, its going to be fine". [and the psycho that i am, i am thinking, 'Dude, your going to have to do a LOT more to be just fine living a life with me] and he gives me his re-assuring smile, like as if he just read my mind. See, right there, that's where he wins me all over again. DAMN.
Thus, i answer the voices
"Arghh, you are SO young to be 'Mrs.Deepika'" = "Am i, then THAT is what adds to the FUN part, doesn't it ??? Younger wives are better than older hags !!! am gonna make all you married couples SO jealous (ok sorry.. Mom says i shouldn't say such things )"
"Why now?" = "Yes, NOW, Right away.. "
"Why not later?" = Later ??? how about a micro-milli-mini-second later ?
"Is this all ?" = Bring it on !!
"So wife huh?!!" = So..... WIFE huh :-)
Two months from now, Meet Mrs.Deepika. :-)
Miss.Deepika
Signing Off
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Friday, July 29, 2011
Best roller-coaster ride ever..
She writes..
How does it feel to be free ? I will let you know soon.
I just got released from my current assignment after 2 years of non-stop work. Lots have happened in the last two years but something that has just remained constant is my WORK. Every day, for 2 years now, i worked.
The longest Roller-Coaster ride i've ever been in. Tears, smiles, shocks, surprises, appraisals,awards...
And now, its all over. The baby that i nurtured for 2 years ,has been handed over to someone else. I have to say, i am experiencing something that people usually call "mixed-emotions". I was waiting until my wedding day to experience one of these but funnily enough, work has taken a lead this time. I am certainly not a work-o-holic. But somehow i feel possessive of the way i dealt with this project. In the begining, it was evil, i tell you. In modern english, i would call it an horcrux that i unabashedly wore around myself for two full years. I failed, i faultered, i flawed, i hurt myself but i survived.
I was rewarded for my work. I was appreciated, i received the most coveted titles. Yet, the most happiness that i got was when everytime i saw the tiny-tot take baby steps and make it into the bigger world. OK. I am talking about the production/live deployment of the deliverables for a change request. OK. In english, project completion.
It was mine all the way, no team, no people. IT was mine and I was proud EVERY time.
If i had to go through the same ride for an other time, would i say yes ? I wouldn't know the answer. I have changed, life changes. But today, as i see the last two years unfold in front of me, i am tempted to be nostalagic, i am sentimental after all. Thanks almighty, for letting me experience something like this, something that almost nearly KILLED me. Thanks for keeping me alive, i depart with a bow. I will miss you. Good Bye CR2.
How does it feel to be free ? I will let you know soon.
I just got released from my current assignment after 2 years of non-stop work. Lots have happened in the last two years but something that has just remained constant is my WORK. Every day, for 2 years now, i worked.
The longest Roller-Coaster ride i've ever been in. Tears, smiles, shocks, surprises, appraisals,awards...
And now, its all over. The baby that i nurtured for 2 years ,has been handed over to someone else. I have to say, i am experiencing something that people usually call "mixed-emotions". I was waiting until my wedding day to experience one of these but funnily enough, work has taken a lead this time. I am certainly not a work-o-holic. But somehow i feel possessive of the way i dealt with this project. In the begining, it was evil, i tell you. In modern english, i would call it an horcrux that i unabashedly wore around myself for two full years. I failed, i faultered, i flawed, i hurt myself but i survived.
I was rewarded for my work. I was appreciated, i received the most coveted titles. Yet, the most happiness that i got was when everytime i saw the tiny-tot take baby steps and make it into the bigger world. OK. I am talking about the production/live deployment of the deliverables for a change request. OK. In english, project completion.
It was mine all the way, no team, no people. IT was mine and I was proud EVERY time.
If i had to go through the same ride for an other time, would i say yes ? I wouldn't know the answer. I have changed, life changes. But today, as i see the last two years unfold in front of me, i am tempted to be nostalagic, i am sentimental after all. Thanks almighty, for letting me experience something like this, something that almost nearly KILLED me. Thanks for keeping me alive, i depart with a bow. I will miss you. Good Bye CR2.
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
It's only the start...
She writes...
Two months from now, i would be a Mrs.
Well, life does change... and fast !! These days, i often hear voices in my head shouting "Arghh, you are SO young to be 'Mrs.Deepika', 'Why now ?', 'Why not later?', 'Is this all?', 'So wife huh ?!!' " .
It is scary, these thoughts. Life beyond the nuptial bond seems like a true mystery and not in a great way. But hey, don't blame me, it is not like anyone who gets married ever paints you a rosy picture of marriage.
Two and half years back, i met this guy.. in a land that i had hitherto only seen on the physical map of India. Somewhere, i know Gandhi did something (!). Something to do with the IIM's (!).....
Anyway, this guy, he was a charmer by all means and yet somehow i managed to ignore him. He was there, sitting next to me, from 9 AM to 6 PM, working with me.. a colleague... and we neither greeted each other nor did we acknowledge each other when we met outside. Weird.
His silence raised my curiosity by the day. Just for the heck of it, I nick-named him "sadhu", someone who, in regional terms, simply means a silent harmless monk !!! Well, Sadhu, not for long. It took me a few more days to realize that i had woken up a "drunken/hangover'ed" lion with my silly insinuations. And that's the start of the greatest friendship ever. I laughed like never before, I had fun like i never had in years, his presence would brighten my day and boy, what a friend he turned out to be? May be that's why i gave him a 5x5 cm cute little hallmark card that said "You are even better than i thought" :)
Night walks, phone calls, SMS, e-mails, gossip, me whining, his jokes, 'nariyal paani' in the canteen, flight journey, auto rides, 'Bhagyodhay's' lemon rice, Panner mania, Iskon mall, ebony lounge, '99' - the movie, infocity resort's pavement....
Well.. love stories just go on.. don't they? *smiles*. Too much said, months passed and I had my share of surprises too, on the eve of my 22nd birthday was a proposal on the sands of thiruvanmiyur beach, a bouquet of roses, a birthday cake that said "for the birth of You and Us" , a swarovski ring... and, everything that a girl wants. Life has never been the same ever since. Tons and galloons of love, laughs, tears, hugs, smiles,fights, fun, happiness and lots and lots of love.... Some more love... Add a tinge of love... a little more.... ah well, its never enough. :)
We make a good pair, you know. May be, that's what our parents saw in us ( 'what we made them see' would be more appropriate !! ). In south india, once you bring the parents in the picture, enlighten them about your relationship, throw in an ounce of seriousness in your tone, expect the next word to be "Marriage". and that is exactly what happened.
Two n half years, seems like a glorious route travelled and the road ahead after two months has the direction sign that says "Life" with -> arrow board. Am i ready to set sail ? I don't know.But one thing that i would do with my eyes closed, is to hold the hands of my guy and walk beside him forever and ever.
I might be freaked out with all this sudden change of comfort zones, marriage responsibilities, new title, new relatives et all.. but he's out there laughing at my innocence and telling me "Idiot, its going to be fine". [and the psycho that i am, i am thinking, 'Dude, your going to have to do a LOT more to be just fine living a life with me] and he gives me his re-assuring smile, like as if he just read my mind. See, right there, that's where he wins me all over again. DAMN.
Thus, i answer the voices
"Arghh, you are SO young to be 'Mrs.Deepika'" = "Am i, then THAT is what adds to the FUN part, doesn't it ??? Younger wives are better than older hags !!! am gonna make all you married couples SO jealous (ok sorry.. Mom says i shouldn't say such things )"
"Why now?" = "Yes, NOW, Right away.. "
"Why not later?" = Later ??? how about a micro-milli-mini-second later ?
"Is this all ?" = Bring it on !!
"So wife huh?!!" = So..... WIFE huh :-)
Two months from now, Meet Mrs.Deepika. :-)
Miss.Deepika
Signing Off
Two months from now, i would be a Mrs.
Well, life does change... and fast !! These days, i often hear voices in my head shouting "Arghh, you are SO young to be 'Mrs.Deepika', 'Why now ?', 'Why not later?', 'Is this all?', 'So wife huh ?!!' " .
It is scary, these thoughts. Life beyond the nuptial bond seems like a true mystery and not in a great way. But hey, don't blame me, it is not like anyone who gets married ever paints you a rosy picture of marriage.
Two and half years back, i met this guy.. in a land that i had hitherto only seen on the physical map of India. Somewhere, i know Gandhi did something (!). Something to do with the IIM's (!).....
Anyway, this guy, he was a charmer by all means and yet somehow i managed to ignore him. He was there, sitting next to me, from 9 AM to 6 PM, working with me.. a colleague... and we neither greeted each other nor did we acknowledge each other when we met outside. Weird.
His silence raised my curiosity by the day. Just for the heck of it, I nick-named him "sadhu", someone who, in regional terms, simply means a silent harmless monk !!! Well, Sadhu, not for long. It took me a few more days to realize that i had woken up a "drunken/hangover'ed" lion with my silly insinuations. And that's the start of the greatest friendship ever. I laughed like never before, I had fun like i never had in years, his presence would brighten my day and boy, what a friend he turned out to be? May be that's why i gave him a 5x5 cm cute little hallmark card that said "You are even better than i thought" :)
Night walks, phone calls, SMS, e-mails, gossip, me whining, his jokes, 'nariyal paani' in the canteen, flight journey, auto rides, 'Bhagyodhay's' lemon rice, Panner mania, Iskon mall, ebony lounge, '99' - the movie, infocity resort's pavement....
Well.. love stories just go on.. don't they? *smiles*. Too much said, months passed and I had my share of surprises too, on the eve of my 22nd birthday was a proposal on the sands of thiruvanmiyur beach, a bouquet of roses, a birthday cake that said "for the birth of You and Us" , a swarovski ring... and, everything that a girl wants. Life has never been the same ever since. Tons and galloons of love, laughs, tears, hugs, smiles,fights, fun, happiness and lots and lots of love.... Some more love... Add a tinge of love... a little more.... ah well, its never enough. :)
We make a good pair, you know. May be, that's what our parents saw in us ( 'what we made them see' would be more appropriate !! ). In south india, once you bring the parents in the picture, enlighten them about your relationship, throw in an ounce of seriousness in your tone, expect the next word to be "Marriage". and that is exactly what happened.
Two n half years, seems like a glorious route travelled and the road ahead after two months has the direction sign that says "Life" with -> arrow board. Am i ready to set sail ? I don't know.But one thing that i would do with my eyes closed, is to hold the hands of my guy and walk beside him forever and ever.
I might be freaked out with all this sudden change of comfort zones, marriage responsibilities, new title, new relatives et all.. but he's out there laughing at my innocence and telling me "Idiot, its going to be fine". [and the psycho that i am, i am thinking, 'Dude, your going to have to do a LOT more to be just fine living a life with me] and he gives me his re-assuring smile, like as if he just read my mind. See, right there, that's where he wins me all over again. DAMN.
Thus, i answer the voices
"Arghh, you are SO young to be 'Mrs.Deepika'" = "Am i, then THAT is what adds to the FUN part, doesn't it ??? Younger wives are better than older hags !!! am gonna make all you married couples SO jealous (ok sorry.. Mom says i shouldn't say such things )"
"Why now?" = "Yes, NOW, Right away.. "
"Why not later?" = Later ??? how about a micro-milli-mini-second later ?
"Is this all ?" = Bring it on !!
"So wife huh?!!" = So..... WIFE huh :-)
Two months from now, Meet Mrs.Deepika. :-)
Miss.Deepika
Signing Off
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